When are we going to admit the generational gaslighting?
We live in a world where most experiences are recorded and viewed through the male experience. History, our leaders, our deities, etc.etc.
It’s like being a women is a big dirty secret and it’s to bad but you don’t get a voice even after you find love. IF you are lucky enough to find the real thing.
Unfortunately most men and boys have no clue how to properly love a girl or a woman. It’s easy to love a baby but once puberty starts separating us by gender, shit goes south. Dads, brothers and uncles get awkward and sometimes even inappropriate. This isn’t intended to be a male bashing thing. I am just stating my experience and observations of fifty two years of being female and having birthed 2 babies; one of them being my rainbow child.
I even almost got married a couple of times and I am beyond thankful that I dodged those bullets. I just can’t anymore. Marriage is antiquated and unnatural for some of us. I don’t think I can find my other half this life time if there even is such a thing.
Now being partners is doable.
Let me just say, now that women are finally realizing and standing up I would hate to be male, especially now.
You cannot just, ‘Grab em’ by the p✌🏻ssy.’ As Trump would say.
I learned to hide my pubescent body growing up because of the strong reaction I received. My 1st sexual experience was date rape. My little sister was there and we were both drunk. The boy that raped me called me the next day wanting to be my boyfriend. It was really messed up. I didn’t admit it was rape until my 30s because of the shame and guilt I felt. That boy probably became a husband and a father.Imagine what he’ll pass on to his son or daughter? His wife? Yuck
I have hated my body,and I have dulled my inner light for centuries because of my wounds and lack of ability to articulate them.
That isn’t me anymore, thankfully I have reached out for help and done the work inside myself to feel safe and confident again.
I can at least now be a safe place for girls to take shelter to build their own understanding of themselves and the divine feminine.
Statistically 1 in 3 females are sexually interfered with and/or raped.
1 in 4 women have miscarriages especially the first pregnancy. My miscarriage was my second in case you wondered. These are 1st world numbers not 2nd or 3rd, I can’t even imagine what girls have had to go through in other countries.
I sincerely hope that whoever reads this never has go through what I have had to go through.
That goes for hims, hers and theys.You can through it but I sure hope you never have too.
JM💞
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